I wonder if this means anything?

I've been busy lately with work and feeling pretty toxic. Sunday I was pretty sick and only finally got up at three in the afternoon. That night I dreamed that I had gathered a large group of "magical" people. As a consequence the gathering place (a cottage) became charged with with all kinds of mystical energy. As a consequence the place was developing "wormhole" like portals allowing quick access to different areas. I amused myself for a moment by diving through portals appearing here and there at my whim.

I was having a good time and so I took a number of the magical people with me into the lake so they could use their water manipulating powers for a spectacular display. When I gave the signal to pool their abilities together to create a waterspout I found myself yanked backwards by an invisible force going skipping along the surface. I turned to see myself rushing headlong towards a killer whale which I manage to avoid only to find myself drawn toward a huge whale like body (many times bigger than the killer whales) lifting itself partially out of the water to draw me beneath it and drown me. I knew intuitively this was what was producing the invisible force that was drawing me towards it. I forced myself to wake up rather than face a drowning death at the flippers of a giant water demon. Apparently gathering magical people together also has a consequence of attracting magical predators. That was the thought that followed me to waking consciousness anyway.

Because I am sick and need the sleep I ignore the lingering nightmare feeling and go to sleep again. This time something completely out of character happens. I have another dream (well series of dreams possibly, I kept waking up and going back to sleep) It starts off typical for my warped mind. There's an apocalyptic event that is occurring at Christmas time. I get a vibe this is something that is occurring due to the negative emotions being build up by people's unfair hatred and apathy for each other. I decided I want to try and clear the psychic ether and possibly avoid this end of days scenario.

I decided that I am going to start engaging in random acts of kindness. In this dream one of my cousins is a doctor. I encounter her as I begin my spree and she decides she wants to join along. She decides she's going to perform medical procedures for free over the Christmas holidays. Well her plan attracts attention. She credits me with inspiring her when someone asks her why she's doing it. This person just so happens to be wealthy and very well connected. He arranges a radio interview for me to speak about what I was planning to do. From there (and while I go in and out of sleep) my plan to perform random acts of kindness inspires others and soon it grows far beyond my ability to keep track of. Banks were forgiving loans, pilots were putting symbols and messages of peace on their fighter jets spreading the word of this growing peace movement. Neighbors were helping neighbors on that cold and unforgiving Christmas week. To make a long story short it seemed like my decision/conviction to engage in random acts of kindness was the excuse the Universe was waiting for to cleanse the planet of the negative emotional build-up.

So anyway. I'm still under the weather so this isn't the best written blog I've ever done. Why I ask what this could mean is because my brain is pretty twisted and functions on dark and twisted scenarios as with the first dream. To dream of love and kindness is basically unheard of for me. I wonder if it signifies a change in my psyche?

Thanks for reading^_^