Yep. Life is good that way.

After adding the addendum to my last posting this feeling came over me. I thought for a second, "What is this feeling?" Then it dawned on me, "Hey! Inner peace!" Yep I've noticed as much as I hate my life right now, my big plans for this year have fallen through. Damn me for not making back up plans! I was going "road building" as in in life I couldn't follow the roads others have walked so I had to make my own. I was going to embark on another life adventure but the job I had lined up to fund it is no longer mine to have. I'm still going to embark on this adventure now I just need to find another job to fund it:) So as I was saying as much as I hate my life right now I have a deep sense of inner peace. It's been hovering there at the periphery for the last few years ever since I decided to accept myself for who I am despite its consequences.

As for who I am. I am a wandering philosopher who has life adventures that I then share with others in hopes they draw benefit from them. The consequences of which is often going from crappy job to crappy job but not always but it's the majority and going from deep meaningful relationship to deep meaningful relationship. My typical lament in all of this is often (aside from little money and instability) is that I meet great and wonderful people only to have them fall away from my life because at some point I have to move on. I really do have a hard time staying in one place for too long. This saddens me a great deal because I keep wondering if the last person I let fall from my life is going to be the last wonderful person I'll ever meet. It hasn't been that way yet. The world is filled with great and wonderful people:) but still I have left behind some great people.

I don't know if that's a satisfying explanation. Its hard to describe the roller coaster ride of my wanderings and how good it feels to have inner peace despite it.

Thanks for taking the time to read this^_^